A Gluttonous, Procrastinating Princess
30-Day Writing Challenge, Day 26
Whew, 11:51pm.
Someone spent an unusual amount of time on Twitter this evening after being forced into overhearing the wretched BET Awards, that I’d totally attend if I were invited.
No more time to waste. Can I write a response to a prompt in 5 minutes? Let’s see.
Writing Prompt: Write about an area in your life that you’d like to improve.
What?! They couldn’t have given me an easier topic today.
I have more areas to improve than a little bit.
Which of these horrendous habits should we attack first:
my procrastination problem?
my gluttonous eating?
my short temper?
my lack of cool?
my disabling indecisiveness?
my reluctance to vulnerability?
my overall undisciplined nature?
Honey child, the list could go on.
It’s 11:57pm now.
I suppose the last bullet would be my answer if I had to make it one composed answer.
The area of my life that I’d like to improve is my discipline. If I were more disciplined, I wouldn’t procrastinate as much and I’d get more done. I would bite my tongue more often, choosing my battles, and not immediately popping off the moment someone does something I don’t like. If I were more disciplined, I wouldn’t sit and eat chocolate until I couldn’t eat anymore.
I get a whole lot of pep in my step when it’s time to go eat (especially when I’m not paying), or a whole lot of hustle in my muscle when I want to go lay up under bae. Where is that energy when it's time to work?!
Yeah, that’s it. That’s what I need to improve. I need to be more disciplined.
If saying “discipline” is too broad, and not necessarily “an area” of my life, I’ll narrow it down to career path productivity. I really could be “further” (whatever tf that is) along in my career if I was putting in more work. I AM A GREAT WRITER GOT DAWG IT! And my work should be more largely seen, but no, Miss Ma’am doesn’t want to work like she needs to work to get there. There’s no reason, with my God-given gift of gab, that I shouldn’t be published in a major publication, or have made legitimate earnings writing for clients, or be regularly receiving 100,000 blog website pageviews. There is NO reason.
I know this and I have to say it aloud to make sure I know it. I need to stop being scared of it, or whatever tf is going on!
(I pressed publish at 11:59pm, then swung my finger over to edit to finish this thought. It’s now 12:12pm, so let’s wrap this up, since I’m about to hit the 30-minute mark.)
Related: 30 minutes of writing for 30 days
I need to be more productive in pursuit of my passions.
You want to write for a living from whatever corner of the Earth you feel like being on at the moment? Well, girl, WRITE! Double-you. Tee. Eff!
I make myself sick. I do.
But wait, T.K., remember, positive self-talk, like Dr. Caryn Winters taught in Interpersonal Communication.
I don’t know. I don’t know.
That’s what I need to improve. My good God, that’s what I need to improve. Because, at this moment, as it stands, I’m thee only one holding myself back. Now if I go producing like crazy, putting myself out there, entering writing contest, guest writing for other small/independent media outlets, really start beating the pavement, and THEN I still don’t get anywhere, well, then, I’ve done my part. And would that mean maybe I’m not that good? Is that what I’m afraid of?
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